Showing Up to Write on My Worst Days

Why I write when I’m not in the mood.

Bill Holmes


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“There will be good days and bad days. Days when you feel inspired and days when you want to walk off a bridge. (And some days when you can’t tell the difference.)”

-Austin Kleon, Keep Going: 10 Ways to Stay Creative in Good Times and Bad

This story was inspired after reading Aman Arora’s “Should You Show Up Even on Your Worst Days?”

Some days it’s a struggle for me to find the strength and the enthusiasm to write anything, even my own name. I had my moments in the past, especially when I was suffering through some serious depressive bouts, but I wrote anyway regardless of if it was one sentence, telling myself “Something’s better than nothing, Bill.”

Writing is my passion, but it can also be a challenging experience when I’m not in the mood to write. Depression isn’t the only factor that’s negatively impacted my mood; financial woes, family drama, and stressful workdays have taken their toll on my enthusiasm and made me skip writing days.

If I wanted to take time off to not write, I’d be entitled to do so, right? A day or two, or maybe a week won’t kill me, would it? The world won’t come to an end if I gave myself a creative sabbatical from the pen and journal or my laptop.

No, life will continue on. I won’t drop dead if I temporarily stop writing, but I know that decision wouldn’t sit well inside my soul.

Regardless of my mood and the days, both the good and the bad, I show up to write. I do so not because I’m a writer, but writing, for me, is a necessity; it’s an activity of my daily living just like eating, drinking water, breathing, and sleeping.

Unless I’m physically ill, like recovering from a serious cold or surgery, I’ll take a break to give my body the rest it needs to make a full recovery. That’s the only exception. I’ve tried writing once when I had the flu, and it wasn’t a pleasant experience. Attempting to journal with a running nose, nagging cough, and a throbbing headache while taking medication made me feel disoriented, which trickled down inside my words.

Documenting my troubles, frustrations, toxic feelings, etc. is therapeutic for me to release all the…



Bill Holmes

Writer. Poet. ESSENCE Best Selling Author. Filmmaker. Personal development aficiando who lives and breathes the mantra "I will not be denied!"